Life

[lastdream]

You know you have some kind of a problem when a friend of your ask you "so. What's your plan for your future ?" and the only answer you can give is something like "... gneh?!". The lack of ambition, that shit gonna kill me. I'm young, think I have some talent. I'm sitting right in front of my life and... I just don't fuckin' know what I want to do. I love art, I love drawing, coloring, I love to write stories, worlds, characters... I need to creat to feel alive but... It's like I don't know what I can do with those "skills". I've try to find a job in the gaming world, but no news. They don't want me for now I guess.

It's like I'm in front of a BIG white board, with paint, but I just don't know what I can do. I stay here, looking to this damn board and doing nothing more. I need a job, but it's seem I can't find one where am I right know. I need to leave and go to the "big" city", like Quebec or Montreal. Do I have enough courage ? No. But I need to. Very soon. Lack of money to paid the monthly bills(thanks school), so I need to work soon. I want my own place. You know, a place I can call home, not my "parents' home".

Aah. I hate being an adult. ¦D

Ah. I wish do be less afraid of everything. Afraid of living. Everything will be more easy, don't you think ? Arf.